Tuesday, December 29, 2009

2009 is ending in 3 days time! and soon we are inviting 2010 into our midst! yea! and looking back in 2009... it was a year of spiritual growth for me... and its not just spritual growth, but growth in all aspects in me... like wisdom, capacity etc... and thank God for that! if i did not know You last year, how will i be able to go through what im going through for this year? with You all things are possible!

Dear God, i really thank You for placing dan and cindy teng into my life as my examples! if not for them who always believe in me and help me overcome my weaknesses, especially my temper... i will not be able to rise up as a helper and serving Your kingdom and Your people with so much joy! even though being a helper is not that easy especially with parental objection, but because You believed in me, i have decided to step out in faith and overcome all the obstacles and challenges with You even if its really hard! Thank you Lord for placing me in W319 after my cg's disband, as i learned alot of new things in this cg, being inspired by the youths that were so hungry for Your Word and also thank you Lord for leading to the guy who will run with me to fulfill my vision! and Thank you Lord once again for stretching my capacity and looking after my needs for 2009! if not for You, i would not have been able to overcome my horrendous boss at work and the parental objections (now includes relatives too) at home... and finally Lord, i thank You for letting me meet this special person who i really want to support and help with my best! oh Lord, i got too much things to thank You for... and i will step out in faith and fulfill the dreams that You gave me, and i will continue to serve Your kingdom and people with my best! =)

shall update it soon! cya peeps! =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 11:15 PM

Sunday, December 27, 2009

This week was just a great week!! christmas services were just great... with the once in a year christmas drama production which always bring laughter, sorrow and also the truth in the Bible. This year the drama team once again gave a super spirited performance! I was always amazed by the professionalism of the drama team! We also had our end of year service this sat then it was really a great Word! The pure in heart shall see the Lord! We also had our appreciation cgm and our cg chalet together after end of year svc... and to say the truth... im still quite shocked tt i got the servanthood award.. just felt tt serving His peope is the purpose that Lord had placed in my life... =)

2009 will be ending in 5 days time... and 2010 will be coming soon... Im right now in the calm before a great storm... have been seeing some hard challenges ahead of me, especially from my family and relatives... but i know that You are more than enough for me! I believe that with You, everything is possible! i will step out with faith to face this upcoming storm together with You and to receive my breakthrough from You after this storm! =)

shall update the blog soon! so cya soon! =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 9:53 PM

Thursday, December 24, 2009

all the outreaches have been so successful!! even though not all the members' classmates came down but we got most of them to come for the outreaches!! and they are quite open for friendship with us! Praise God and i can't wait for xmas service and the drama!! =D

shall update again soon! cya soon! =D

Posted by mitangningmeng at 12:49 PM

Monday, December 21, 2009

yesterday's thanksgiving svc was really wonderful! i should say its touching yet exciting... hearing testimonies of people who have went through hard times in their life and yet never give up hope and conitnue to have faith in God really touched me... pst kong and sun are indeed city harvest's heroes and also they are my heroes and my constant inspirations as they really lead by example by showing how they laid their lives down for the Kingdom of God... the svc ended with a big bang and the svc was just unexplainable by words bcoz its just so wonderful..

feeling so convicted after seeing the testimonies and the stories of the unsung heroes in chc... why should i even have complains in my heart about my life now? the heroes went through hardships which is even worse than me and yet they never give up and they continue to love God wholeheartedly... even though 2010 will not be going to be a good year for me... but thanks to the svc ytd and thanks to you for accompanying me to chat ytd... i have my fears removed from me... and no matter how hard it is, i will still serve You with my best and wholeheartedly.. even if my flesh wants to hold me back, i will never fall because i know You are there looking after me and with You i have nothing to fear because with You and Your grace, my problems are so small! =)

thank you Lord for sending me a message ytd, telling me to rise up and impact the youths... and God just like what sun told us ytd... we only have one life, live it to the fullest n pursue the dreams given by God... so Lord i have decided... 3 years for me to prepare myself... and after my diploma i will start pursuing Your dream and vision that You gave me together with the cg member that You led me to, whom also have that same vision as me... =)

will update my blog soon so cya peeps! =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 9:45 AM

Friday, December 18, 2009

yay!! the class outreaches have all started!! and its alwaes so happy to see the friends being open up with friendship and able to talk to us! man... the outreaches that have just passed were all quite fruitful!! Praise God for that!! ytd went to meet up with melvin to buy stuffs for christmas!! chocolates, cards... ( i bought paper to make my own xmas cards!! =D) and we went around to look for candycanes but... causeway point did not sell any even though there are 2 supermarkets and one convenience store!! we even went to visit the pasar malam to see if there were any but there is no candycane but maybe we saw walking canes!! T.T... but its okie! it was considered fruitful!! i shall go visit more supermarkets on saturday morn!! and we saw weijie working at long john silvers at cwp!! next time want offer can go find him!! haha!!

went for a jog as usual but this time rd it was so different... someone was playing at one of the street soccer courts by himself and his playing style is so familiar... and just by looking at him my blood like... starts to boil? but i just cannot remember who is he le... but he seems to remember me and ask me for a 1-1... and hes not tt bad either... managed to fight head on with me and was quite a tough fight and at one moment his special shot caught me at the side of my body and it hurts to the core!! and i remember that shot because its also one of my special shot!! and he also used some of ym playing style and tricks!! i was like playing against my old self and i really keep wondering who is he...

and my dream would have been a good one but yet right now its just a dream that continues to sadden me... the smile that you gave in the dream was so comforting and even in reality too... and it dawns on me that even though i was the one who said to give up for now, but im also the one who did not want to make this decision and maybe im also the only one who missed each other's company and i guess im no longer standing anywhere in you... even though i tried so hard not to think about it... right now i missed the times when we can chat so freely but right now i really wonder... and i alwaes mind about what you are doing... and i admit tt you are really someone who is just so important to me and i... did i do the right decision in saying tt? but i really dun want to give u those unwanted pressure so tt you can reach ur fullest potential and serve Him... but right now im so torn up inside... how i wish we can be like before again.. wonder if you will read this?? =(

will update my blog soon! cya soon! =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 9:19 AM

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

yesterday's christmas planning was so cool! all the helpers and leaders in the cg were planning about what we are going to do next and the helpers can start all the funnie moves with the word AHHA and the snaps! lol... aren't we creative?? really love this cg to bits... their willingness and hunger for God really inspires me greatly... =)

and right at this moment im reflecting about my own doings since i start coming to church and getting saved by God... I really think that I have did things the wrong way... and it was just so wrong... trying to smoke through people (but of course not my leader) and misleading them with false information... and sharing too much with the wrong people... man i was just so stupid! and right now when i finally start to move back onto the correct track due to God's grace... all these problems start magnifying back at me... people thinking of me like this or like that... even though im unhappy with all these comments and opinions about me but what can i do? i only have myself to blame for doing such stupid things last time... God forgive me for what i did... with Your grace i will pick myself up after this fall and i will learn these mistakes by heart and continue to move on... and God i pray that You will continue to guide me and blessing me with Your wisdom so that i can grow stronger spiritually under Your guidance... =)

shall update soon! =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 4:45 PM

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Today is really exciting!! First time i felt so rejuvinated as i have finally completed my therapy for my right leg!! wheee... and it feels good once again to have my "golden right leg" back in action!! haha... running past opponents, using tricks once again, supporting my teammates... it just feels so good! haha! and to melvin: if you read this, i just want to thank God that He led me to you so that im able to find another guy who have the same vision with me! to say the truth, when you are telling what God told you, i was actually super shocked even though my face didn't show it because i had never even told you about this vision of mine and yet God gave you this vision so that we can run together to fulfill His dream!! I really can't wait to sharpen this talent that God gave me tgt with you, braving through all the obstacles and challenges tgt with you and God and finally fulfilling God's vision of impacting the orphans with our soccer mixed with the Word of God... and our soccer is to shine for God and for our own will! =D

man I can't wait to get into the christmas mood! W319's plans for these few weeks are really exciting!! end of year's class outings, candlelight svc, xmas svc, chalet and our appreciation cg!! haha... it might be tiring, but i will still give my best as its all for You my Lord! i will help to set up this platform for You so that You can spread Your unconditional love among the lost souls that we are reaching out to!! and thank God for W319! I felt so excited in this cg as every member is so hungry for you and they are constantly running after Your heart and they really inspires and motivates me!! and God i want to prepare myself for Your will so that You will use me for greater things and i want to rise up so that i can help You to impact youths in my cg and being a strong armorbearer for my cg leaders!! =D

will update my blog soon and cya peeps!! =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 5:44 PM

Saturday, December 12, 2009

These 2 days were just so exciting and eventful! on friday we had our cg meeting! even though its a familiar message... but it never fails to inspire me by seeing how God rises up dry bones into humans with body, spirit and soul! once we have faith in God and set up the platform for Him, nothing is impossible with Him even if its rising up dry bones which seems impossible in human views... but He can do it! =) and after that we went to watch Planet 51! Its just simply so funnie! A movie recommended to watch!! =)

Then todae i went for service with W319!! a good message preached by our Pst Kong!! the ways of getting a dream of God and fulfilling it with obedience just like mary, who obeyed to what God says and give birth to our saviour Jesus Christ even though she was under prosecutions!! really inspired by that! and Pst Kong prayed for all the connect group leaders and his anointing is so strong then it basically just "electrocuted" me with his aura and he placed his hand on my head and Colossians 4:6 came out again in my head... "Let your speech always be with grace, seasoned with salt, that you may know how you ought to answer each one." and imagined how surprised i was when my cg member came over and told me that God reminded him to learn soccer from me and he wants to impact the kids by teaching the kids to play soccer... Gosh!! its just the same as my vision! and i found tt person who can run with me together for my vision!! Praise the Lord!! =)

and so cya soon peeps!! shall update it soon! =D

Posted by mitangningmeng at 11:07 PM

Thursday, December 10, 2009

phew... this week is finally coming to an end!! a short break from all the boring and tiring work in my wrkplace! and im so looking forward to cgm and svc with W319!! and not forgetting... our cg movie outing after cgm on friday!! so looking forward to seeing them once again and hving fun fellowships with them!! =)

as for now... im currently visiting a physio right now to let him check on my body and to "modify" my body... haha! as i have to prepare this body of mine for all the upcoming soccer visitations and competitions and also God's vision for me... so the report came out and it shows that i have overstressed my 2 knees and especially at the lower shin area (just slightly above the ankle) on the right leg and he said that it might cause stress fracture and so he send me to do some therapy on my right leg and it feels alot better... like foot spa!! hahaha!! and hes currently helping me with my body balance especially on my legs as i tends to use more of my right leg then my left leg so im currently training on my body balance and once again prepare myself to take on the first step of the journey to fulfill His vision!! thank you God for Your presence and strength which brings me through all these "refinings" of my talent given by You! =)

this week's prayer meeting and zone prayer meeting were really good but sadly i can only go for 30mins for the morning pms which is really sad for me.... but its okie! at least i went n felt His presence!! haha... and i feel the power of prayer for growth and i believe that growth is coming our way for the church and also our cg and its time we prepare ourselves before it became another divine delay!! and i want to be a strong armorbearer for my cg leaders and run together with them and flow with the cg and church's vision!! and God i need your wisdom and strength... as it is impossible by man alone but its possible with God!! =)

and so i shall update it very soon!! see you peeps! =D

Posted by mitangningmeng at 11:02 PM

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

haha... its almost time to finish work soon!! woohoo... cant wait for prayer meeting!! its gonna be cool! but man... work here is getting more tiring and more boring and i guess its nt due to physical tireness but more of mental tireness.... =X But then its just true... my boss is giving me alot of problems at work, either preparing posion arrows to shoot me in the head or trying to play my mind off?? But im trying to read her mind and see what is going on in her mind and whats she thinking... LOL! But God... will you tell me what is going on here?? my friends are being accused by my boss just bcoz they are sharing a table with me to work and she can accuse either they are distracting me or i cannot do my work because of them... haiz... at one moment i really do think that why am i still working here... and it will be alot better if i left my workplace so that my boss would not drag anyone else into more trouble..

But God, i know You are seeing my situation now... and to You its just nothing to you and so God i really pray that you will show me the purpose of me working in this place and also what i should do next... and thank you Lord that you have stretched my capacity and endurance to another level if not i think i might be going crazy with anger by now?? @.@...

shall update my blog again soon! =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 4:26 PM

Monday, December 7, 2009

oh God... guide me and tell me if im going in the correct way... i start to miss her more often... even though we don't talk much face to face and we only communicate through sms and phone calls, it really matters alot to me... there are really a lot of reasons why i did not talk to you much when we saw each other face to face and i really hope that you will forgive me and understand me for that... it was so long since i felt like this, really liking someone with my heart... and i must respect your decision and i guess im really satisfied just seeing you for now and i promise i will try my best to talk to you as much as possible when i got the chance... and i will be the one who will stand near you and give you my full support for you and wait for you when you need me... =)

and im off for my own training now... =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 11:39 PM

this few weeks have been a rocky path for me especially in my work. Days when i was backstabbed for dunno how many times, days when i got accused by my boss for not doing work when everytime im putting my all for the work and really... thank you Lord for stretching my capacity, my tolerance and my endurance to another level and without You i don't think i can manage to survive for that long under such an "ultimate level" boss. Sometimes i really imagine if i had not known You and saved by Your grace and mercy, what will i become as of now? *shudders* i cant imagine how violent i can be... >.<

and God thank you for Your encouraging word during the night when i heard of all these nonsense that made me so down, and thank you Lord for that refreshing touch that can let me last through the whole night training which i intended to go and sweat it out and throw away my feelings, even without a night of sleep, i still can go for soccer with my cg guys... and not only that You gave me a fruitful training that night so that i improve abit on my body balance and i can start dribbling the ball with my left leg... thank you Lord... i really dunno how much i can thank You for all these while which You have blessed me with Your strength... =)

just wanna say something... talent is not something that is given to us when we are born... but through tons and tons of "refining", this piece of unrefined gem will be refined and and will shine for the Lord our God for His glory we shall use this talent that we have just refined to the best!! and tts all peeps... shall update soon! =)

Posted by mitangningmeng at 1:46 PM